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I love her
For she is great.
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Juanvember
a few people at work are SHOCKED I don’t give a fuck someone put in their 2 week notice. What? The person whose face twitches whenever they talk to me? And came to argue with me directly after receiving a text about how i’m done arguing with people about Juanvember? Naw. Can’t care about that.
That’s right. I said it. Juanvember. I didn’t come up with it, though. A family member said over the weekend, “how are you holding up this Juanvember?” ……. I just kind of stared at them. They said “I haven’t seen you as angry and or depressed as I have the last few weeks. And I know it’s just because of Juan,” he said. Can’t argue. He’s right.
And the person with the twitchy face i mentioned them in the initial post in the reboot of this god damn text nonsense. Only, I got the quote wrong. I said she had an “immaculate face card.” I was corrected by the person who I made sad when she read it. Sorry. Immaculate face cards don’t give people a pass to be fucking morons though. Maybe they’re smart in a bunch of other ways, but surely not in a way that brought them to me saying intelligent things about the situation going on. Definitely not smart enough to listen to, you know, the fucking person who said the shit and who was and is working with management about the very thing they’re making full blown retarded comments and claims about.
Get fucked.
editing in more:
You know what I think is the funniest shit, the whole few weeks dipfuck was talking shit about me to anybody who would listen, knowing damn well because enough of them were repeating it straight to me… sometimes texting or calling me about it within minutes. I still had 4WG’s fucking back. I was still defending him to management and making god damn sure everything was good.
Not after I was stripped of warehouse though. Had a rather long sit-down and explained all my concerns, since I was “passing off lead, better compare notes on what I’ve been concerned about and keeping tabs on.” Good luck, asshole. Not too many people on earth I’ve done more for in coworker spaces, to get fucked worse than I think I’ve been fucked before. Maybe one time, worse than this. And the funniest shit is, it was more because of shit he wasn’t doing, than the fucking rumors. The rumors were just the last straw. Good job, dumbass.
Get fucked, as I said.
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Why only a journal?

also meme dump? yes.
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Mental Weight
I had typed a fuck ton of this out, using Dreamweaver and apparently I didn’t hit ctrl+s one fucking time. I really wanted to use dreamweaver because I was just going to do a dark green background, with a light green text – terminal font, like the fucking old apple computers from the 80s. Because fuck you, and mostly fuck wordpress. I fucking hate wordpress, the whole goddamn internet is fucking wordpress and mother fucking canva.
The good thing about having to redo it though, is I know I was jumping all over the place, timeline wise. So this time I’ll just start at the beginning and get to the fucking workplace nightmare I currently work in. I’ve been trying to get this shit out of my head because, honestly, it’s fucking over. There’s nothing to be done about it now, and I just want to move on.
The job I had prior to the current, I started in 2012. This is relevant because from the jump in the interview, I said there’s a good chance we’re going to be moving out of the area in 2015. I wanted to be up front with places I interviewed because if they were trying to find a very long term person, I wasn’t it. But they were super excited that they were looking at bringing on someone who fully intended to stay for a few years.
We got a new manager running the western half of the country’s warehouses. He was told about it, and I wasn’t mad, because I was open about it. The whole point was communication. Then we had a new guy above that manager, running all of the warehouses in North America. Also, dude heard about it, we talked about it, and it was cool. Non issue.
They tried to get me to stay, but I did leave in 2015. Not for the reason I expected, but the way it all happened was a big change anyway. Then I came back in 2017. Worked there until summer of 2022. I had the chance to go to my current job because their warehouse guy was complete shit. That, and there was a lot they needed to see change in their warehouse, that I had done at several warehouses prior. So I went there, excited to help them get their warehouse evolved to more modern standards. Including, for fuck sakes, putting locations in and getting the hundreds of machines in locations, rather than the whole warehouse as one location. Nobody should be living like that.
The person who got me in the door was from facebook. A random. She was pretty cool. It was a full year and a half working with her before, during a meeting when I was actively listening watching her, listening to her talk, before I realized OH. SHE’S REALLY REALLY PRETTY. It’s not that she wasn’t pretty enough to notice, it’s just when I started she had a dude, and she sounded and laughed exactly like my aunt, so she was firmly off my radar. It was weird to me that I didn’t notice how pretty she is, considering how all the dudes doing pickups of machines and in the parts room and shit all flirted with her mercilessly. It was funny watching her completely unphased waving them off. She’s awesome.
The president was cool, his wife was odd but cool, the lady who ran the sister company’s accounting and order entry and everything was cool. Loved everybody there. The service manager was who interviewed me and I love that guy above all. He died. Dude jogged before he got to work, which was at like 5:45 every day, and then one week he just died over a couple days.
After he died we got this new dude who wasn’t the service manager but was operations manager overall. He was a good manager, unlike many others I had. Willie was great, but he was a service manager and hands off pretty much everywhere else. Service and parts, because those are so heavily intertwined. I took over the warehouse and ran with it. Put in an inventory system, worked with the main side accounting and sales order entry dude, got it so it printed on the pick tickets for everybody. We made it happen.
Then, for who the fuck knows why, the chick who got me hired was shuffled around, set up to fail (not just me, we all saw it clearly) – then was fired. The theory is the president didn’t like her and just pushed her out. I did ask the president what the fuck, nobody understands why she got fired, she was there for all of us, ride or die, got a ton done. was amazing. I forget what he said but it sounded like complete bullshit. I liked the president though, so I generally let it go but it really sucked.
I was furiously pissed though. I cleaned off my desk. I went on many dozens of interviews. A couple of the jobs I wanted didn’t go for me, which was depressing and the ones that did want me, I toured and it was clearly far worse environments than I was in. The pay was better at a few but there were enough big negatives that I passed.
Along the way, the operations manager had found someone to hire for warehouse and was going to have me train them knowing I was trying to get out. But the president talked to me and didn’t want me to leave and saved the position so I felt I owed him, so I stayed. I really liked everybody at the job, so I didn’t want to leave. It’s not often you can work somewhere that you genuinely like everybody. Even though some people had some faults, we all do, so that’s life.
Then we got this guy who assisted operations manager and essentially became the service manager though not in title. The dude was nice enough. But that’s where the compliments end. And they end firmly. The dude was a fucking moron. He confidently made statements and gave instructions that were exactly wrong.
One period, we were doing this water competition. They broke up the team into two groups and whoever got the most water donations, won. We had 2 pallets forced into this area where there was barely room for them. That was for the loose donations. The full pallets would be moved into the back of the warehouse, out of the way.
The controller we had at the time, his team collected enough money that they bought a full pallet. I put it back in the back of the warehouse, per always. They had done this water drive various times in the past, and that’s what they did then. I figured that was the obvious thing to do before I even heard that’s how it used to be. But the controller wanted it with the donation pallets. Where machines moved all over the place, and where there wasn’t room. I argued with him that it’s not where the full pallets go, and he just walked away.
Clearly he went above me and went to the assistant retard, and I feel confident he had to be beyond the spectrum into some kind of mentally retarded space. Maybe because of boxing and football? Just knocked any sense out of him? I don’t know. But he was full blooded derp. He kept arguing with me to move the pallet over there. I told him I would move it, and eventually did. To where it belonged, back in the back of the warehouse.
That devolved rather quickly until he was moving shit around by the single case donation pallets, and I yelled at him. Every single person in the building and all the techs yelled at him at least once, through his time there. He was a childhood friend of the president, so that’s the only reason any of us could figure out why he was there at all. I had spent weeks trying to figure out, if I was HR manager for the world, where I would even put him in any workforce. At first I thought walmart greeter, but the more I thought about it the more I realized he would be horrible in even that job. Because he’s charismatic I figured, but if he has to stop and check people’s receipts or anything at all, he thinks way too much of himself and would go too far and it would be shit for everybody. I settled on, that guy in banks, who greets you and directs you where you would need to go. Even if he fucks that up, they can just be told by wherever they went, where to go. I doubt he could fuck that job up. But I’m sure he would find a way.
Then the controller quit. The company side dude who did accounting and sales orders and shit told me before it was announced. I was so excited. The lesser douchebag down, all we need now is to get rid of this fucking moron.
I ended up getting trained for moving from Warehouse to Service Billing in mid June 2024. In summer of 2023 I had two very close encounters with heat stroke, and my fight or flight response kicked in. Mixing that with the gorgeous motherfucker getting fired for no reason, it just added fuel to the fire that I needed to get out of there. But since the president saved my job, I’m glad I ended up staying but going into Billing.
We had a new guy to train for warehouse so I started training him. First day was a total cluster fuck. In the middle of the day we were burning through it and found out a truck was coming. So we had to derail what we were doing and go full force into that truck. He ended up staying an hour and a half later that day. I told him he could leave, it was his time to leave, but he was a trooper and stayed and helped as long as he could. He never came back after that. It was easily one of the most fucked days I’ve had there, and happened to be when trying to train a new guy.
Second guy was better. He was great at cleaning shit up. He might have thrown out more than he should have but it looked clean as fuck so fuck it. His big problem was he had a big temper and didn’t need to have a job at all. I knew that was going to be a short lived employee. And, sure enough he quit on my birthday (Sep 6th).
Somewhere towards the end of September, we got a dude who was a mechanic who had his own shop. He had been in warehouses in the past before that, and was alright. He was late all the time and called in all the time. He would go to lunch and be gone for hours, if not for the rest of the day. He got fired in late october. Didn’t last long at all. Six or seven weeks I think. I hated dealing with him because he talked so low, and mumbled so thick, it was hard to understand him. There’s a lot I just did for him instead of having him do it because he didn’t understand a lot. He was a rough learner.
In late November, we got the fourth contender for warehouse. He was the fastest learner. He was the first to organize the pallets in the back by size, and was on time (as far as I cared) every single day. I say as far as I cared because he’d be off five or ten minutes here or there, who gives a shit. I mean, I don’t give a shit. He came in early anyway, to try and help the techs load up and all that. So arguably he was always really early, since we didn’t open for customers until 7:30. He came around 6:30.
I got him trained fairly easy, and helped him get inventory lined up for our yearly inventory in early December. It came and went pretty fast. I felt bad for him that day because he was paired up with the dumb fuck manager. That manager by the way, was all over the warehouse guy’s shit the entire time. It got so bad that several months in, I inserted myself between them and talked the manager into sending almost all the instructions for the warehouse guy through me.
March came, and the accounting sales order dude on the main side died. Out of nowhere. Dude died in the car, in a car wash. The controller quit. The HR lady slash accountant slash sales entry for the other company in the building, she had it all on her shoulders. She’s amazing though so she got through it. Then she got help, and they brought in a temp accountant to cover. Pretty fast.
The funny thing about that hire, she wasn’t like super hot or anything but she had what i called a “stellar face card.” The parts guy was like OH YOU HAVE A CRUSH ON HER, YOUR CRUSH IS LEAVING, YOUR CRUSH LEFT ALREADY, all the time. Like dude just because I recognize she has a crazy high level face card doesn’t mean I even like her, much less have a crush on her or any shit like that.
I worried parts guy was going to make everything super awkward because he would say shit like that while she was actually in the building. And it’s not true. I didn’t even get a crush on the gorgeous person who got me hired. I haven’t had a crush on some random person since Toys R Us. That was in like 2006.
In fact, I accidentally made a friend spiral because we were hanging out and I mentioned “we got this new girl at work and she has a fucking stellar face card.” My friend got all depressed. I asked her what was wrong. She said “That’s a life goal. I long for a day to come where someone says I have a stellar face card.” And she got really sad the rest of the day. Which is crazy because she’s cute as fuck as it is. She has a fuckable face for sure. We all told her. I pointed out I’ve said a million times if she wasn’t married to a friend I’d last like two seconds in her face, she does have a sexy ass face. But I never told her it’s nothing compared to the stellar face card coworker lol.
Plus, I always got the feeling from her like I would get from high strung people at grocery stores up in Nebraska when I had long hair. She has the same kind of disgusted sneer. I know she tries to hide it but it’s …. it’s obvious. She’s like me and it’s really hard for us to keep our facial expressions to ourselves. My favorite shit is I see her lively talking to all sorts of people at work, but when she talks to me I see her eyes and cheek twitching all the time. I haven’t seen it when she talks to anyone else, just me. And it’s fine. I don’t hold it against people. I always wear black. I don’t dress up. I’m a fat bastard. She dresses to the nines. That face card, as I said. We’re on different planets, different species all together. I get it.
Somewhere along the way, I forgot to mention, there was a new dispatch person who at an all hands meeting, the president said “she came just when we needed her most and filled the role amazingly” – while the person who was doing a great job at it before her was sitting right there in the meeting. like dude, how fucked up honestly. More reason behind all of us thinking he got rid of her just because he personally didn’t like her at all.
Right about the time they fired the person who got me hired, they brought in another person to help with dispatch. That person trained Billing with me and she does a lot of the 3rd party non-company machine billing through all these portals I don’t know. I’ll need to learn them one day but as long as she’s there she deals with them. She also did that exact thing at the previous job she had, so she just jumped right into it. No problem. I was still warehouse lead so I was all over back and forth between Warehouse and Service Billing.
I would be neck deep in Billing and the fourth warehouse guy, from here on 4WG, would show up with a question or a problem and I would jump and head out there with him and help him take care of it. Pallet damaged, need to reject something, somebody back there giving him trouble, whatever it was I was there. Not just because I love warehouse but I also live to serve. Speaking of live to serve, there is a long list of shit from I.T. support to graphic design, system support, all sorts of shit I do beyond just Billing and Warehouse. I kept the title Warehouse Lead when I added Billing Lead, and 4WG was Warehouse Specialist.
There’s a lot of shit he didn’t have time to do so I was glad to help. Sometimes shit would be up his ass and I just would go back there and, for example, separate all the two company’s machines. It wasn’t done, and I never thought there was any point to it, but I did it anyway. Management wanted it and wasn’t going to stop trying to make it happen so I just did it. I had been thinking about how to do it for a couple years anyway so I had already played that game of tetris in my head a thousand times. So I just knocked it out one day when it was getting serious.
Then all the sudden, the president is acting super stressed and distant. A few weeks of that and he announces he’s leaving. By the end of that day he’s sent home. At like 2pm that is. His wife worked out the rest of the two weeks because she worked technically for a company up the chain from the ones I worked for. Bunch of companies in one building, all under a parent company. All very strange.
Somewhere between the accounting/sales order dude dieing in march and the president quitting, the one outside sales guy I really liked who had become inside sales or whatever he was doing, he quit.
Temp president comes. One of the two inside sales guys got fired. Finally that prick manager got fired along with a really nice guy who was hired on to be a trainer and ultimately was sent out in the field a lot as well. But we understand why he was fired. Great guy though, I helped him get a job somewhere after that. The president of sales helped him get one, then I helped him get one, then he ended up at a third one. I think he’s still there. I hope he’s doing good there.
Then the high energy manager quit. Right after he quit, it was announced that sales guy who had me get down a stand knowing it would take at least 40 minutes, because it was super buried because the warehouse was overfilled with crates….. he walked ina fter I got it down, looked at it for maybe three seconds, said oh I can’t use this for that customer and walked away. I was standing there glaringat him considering screaming at him for wasting my time. WHY WOULDN’T YOU BE ABLE TO SEE IN THE SYSTEM OR LOOK IT UP ONLINE KNOWING WHAT THE FUCKING MODEL NUMBER IS AND LEARN YOU CAN’T USE IT THAT WAY? WASTE WHAT ULTIMATELY WASA FULL OUR OF MY TIME? FOR THAT? i told him about this not very long ago. He apologized but I still kind of resent him for that. One stupid fucking thing on a whole lot of other things.
This dude as a sales guy, repeatedly has customers showing up to pick up “like new” machines, that have all manner of corrosion and even rust sometimes. Customers look at it and cancel the deal on the spot like no way. I don’t blame them. But it’s so often me back there, now 4WG, that it’s really rather embarrassing. But it is funny that some of the customers are like, yes I know the sales guy well enough to come put eyes on this myself before it’s picked up.
That guy is the right hand man of the acting president. We collectively got really fucking nervous. The high energy manager, we all thought he was the best choice by far. Dude needs to be moved up. He’s saved all of our asses multiple times and has done a great job.
But that’s not what we saw happen. We saw the acting president directly going to people, including me, to get things done, completely bypassing him. I think the last straw was when high energy manager learned one of the techs was remodeling the shop. He had no idea. He was cut out of the loop. We all saw what was going on and I think all but a couple of us were actively looking for other jobs, if for no other reason than to just keep our options open. Some were looking before the previous president got pushed out.
4WG had been saying from the moment he started, all the way through, that he was only going to stay through 2025. Which is fine. It’s nice he let us know. So we had that in mind. Well, the high energy manager and I had that in mind. 4WG was also rightfully getting more and more pissed off with all the shit the right hand man and acting president were doing unilaterally. We would just come in to work and they had moved shit all over the place. Which is fucked for us because we have every single machine in a location. Either in the system or in a spreadsheet so we can always find where everything is at any given time.
The locations were all fucked up with all that had gone on over the summer. The worst was the few weeks before a big open house. The warehouse is about half stacked crates, 1/8 parts cage, and 2/8 uncrated machines either waiting to go into the shop or done waiting for install. or rentals done waiting to go back out. uncrated machines.
I tried to get 4WG to at least cycle count the crated shit to get that up to date. One of the first things they wanted to change was the racked location numbers. The acting president had a great point about the way they were numbered, and I had argued with myself about maybe doing it the way he suggested so I just went and redid them. Then we labeled all of the locations instead of just the ones across the floor. 4WG was good with helping gat that done.
One of the techs was recently promoted to lead tech just before the previous president got pushed out. He ended up service manager. After high energy manager left, we were all like…… who’s the boss? Oh somewhere along the way an acting controller came along, but he’s rarely there and I think he’s mostly remote on call even? I don’t know. But we only see him sometimes on Thursdays when there are meetings.
The biggest thing we all kept saying was, fuck, what the fuck are we going to do if the used car salesman sales guy ends up the boss? It seems like one of the worst possible choices. Sure, he’s been with the company endlessly longer than anybody else, save for the sales president dude. But he’s in his late 70s and it’s amazing he’s even still working.
Then we all get an email where towards the end it mentions the sales guy as General Manager. I figured at that point, I might as well get him up to date with everything I’ve been watching or juggling or otherwise needing to see done in warehouse and outside. The warehouse position not only deals with warehouse, but keeping the grounds clean, watching the fence and the razor wire, dealing with the freight containers outside, machines, gate, dock, parking lot, all sorts of shit out there. swamp coolers.
I ask to talk to the new general manager dude and tell him about all of that and ask him to keep the warehouse position listed because he was talking about getting the unneeded stuff taken down from indeed and everywhere they list their stuff. He asked me why would we leave that up and I said he’s always said he is only going to be here through the end of 2025. But he hasn’t said fo sure, so we should just keep it listed to have fresh resumes hopefully if he does put his notice in. Then kept talking about shit from the walls of the gravity well in the truck dock needing fixed, lights replaced outside, talked about the cameras being a mystery to everybody that we can’t access them anymore. He talked about how we’re going to move to a new system with new cameras and everyone will have a card to get in instead of people with keys and it’ll always be locked. We talked about a lot. At the end he asked if other managers knew about 4WG and I said he’s been talking about it to everybody the entire time. I know the high energy manager knew. New general manager brought up he knew 4WG was going for a CDL so he already figured he wouldn’t be with us forever.
I went back and gave 4WG a heads up new general manager was going to talk to him about it but it wasn’t a big deal. Then a customer came and I wandered back to my desk in the office.
Me and my hoarding self, I deleted all the texts when I wiped a bunch of shit off my phone in irritation. I just scrolled through the secondary screenshot shit and didn’t have any in there. just looked again in the google photos but nope. cannot believe i didn’t screenshot that text thread.
Anyway 4WG started going off. Telling me he’s pissed I threw him under the bus and on and on and on. I just let him go until the point he started saying shit I never said. I gave him the definition of thrown under the bus and explained I didn’t say shit to get him in trouble, nobody thought anybody was in trouble, it was very boring information, in the middle of a ton of other information. I didn’t say he was pissed, I didn’t say he was upset about low pay, I didn’t say he had been doing interviews, I didn’t say he was quitting soon to go drive trucks, I didn’t say fucking anything at all other than leave the job listing up, that has been up the whole time because of how bad the 3 before him were.
I didn’t go back there for a couple days. Then 4WG was in the parts area and didn’t look at me, didn’t say shit, didn’t tell me when he left, nothing. So I said to parts guy, 4WG is still mad at me. Shit is insane, there’s no reason to be mad. parts guy proceeded to tell me I should apologize. I said, apologize for what? I didn’t do anything. Parts guy said yes you did you told general manager he wanted to quit and hated his job and everything. No I didn’t. Then here comes the face card and asks what was going on and parts guy said 4WG is still mad at what ponderance did.
Then face card, who I have no fucking idea how she heard about this at all to begin with, startes lecturing me that I shouldn’t have fucked over 4wg like that. HUH!!??!?! I didn’t do shit to the dude. He’s mad over a fantasy of what he thinks is going on, won’t listen to me, and is crying to everybody who will listen. I’ve had a few techs come up to me too, and ask me why I fucked over 4WG. I explained to her the same thing I told all of them, I didn’t say shit about any of the stuff 4WG has said. just not to take down the job listing like general manager mentioned wanting to do. Face card started saying crazy shit like it was none of my business to take what a peer said and go up the chain. I reminded her I’m warehouse lead too, not just service billing. She said doesn’t matter you’re his peer.
No. I’m his lead. If I don’t say anything and they take the position down and he quits, and they find out I knew about it and said nothing, that’s fucked up. There’s nothing fucked up about keeping the communication going that he might move on at the end of the year / beginning of next year. That’s called being an adult. She and parts guy both were up my ass that I’m wrong and I fucked him over and need to apologize. She said now they can just fire him and replace him. I said with fucking who? They can’t even find a parts guy to help out and they’ve been trying to do that for months. I assured both of them, that’s not happening and I wouldn’t be somewhere that management does that. I’ve never seen them do anything remotely like that.
High energy guy might have, but still. He’s gone. Since then, the acting president voiced he’s worried 4WG is going to leave us high and dry and I said not only can I cover it just fine, but 4WG has repeatedly said he’ll give plenty of notice when he leaves. It’s not just going to be out of nowhere. I know that might be a lie but I never said shit about it. That’s where even know that’s getting into none of my business. I know where the line is.
And the whole time I’m keeping 4WG’s back, I keep hearing more shit from techs telling me I fucked him over, more from the parts guy asking if I apologized yet when I didn’t do shit to the warehouse guy. Not only did I not do shit but I’ve been arguing on his behalf whenever the acting president or general manager bring it up. Though most of the time it’s just been, why do I hear people complaining you fucked 4WG. I tell general manager it’s just because I told you to keep that job listing up. general manager, the HR lady, both are like why is he even upset that’s nothing at all. YEAH I KNOW.
it got to the point where acting president was really upset some shit didn’t get done out in the warehouse. I have been busy and was sick a couple days, and haven’t been able to get out there and just do it, like I’ve done other shit, to get it done.
Then, recently, I was out there talking to 4WG and I had just talked to general manager late the day before. I was sharing all the stuff he wants to do and 4WG was all pissed off WHY DID HE TELL YOU ALL THIS AND NOT ME? I asked why he was mad and he claimed he wasn’t mad. I know he was mad, because he was fumbling with the shit he wa doing while he was firmly not making eye contact with me.
I said, well, probably because I’m warehouse lead. and I fucking swear to god, the dude looks at me and asks “since when?”
I just stood there staring at him for a second, since when? since long before he started, every time I was brought out to take part in meetings and discussions about warehouse. every time i came out and spent hours helping him, gladly mind you. every time i spent hours, including the very day before, cleaning up stuff in the system or otherwise doing things to help take care of warehouse. since when???? what the fuck? it’s always been on my email signature. I don’t know if hewas fucking with me or gaslighting me or joking or what the fuck. Parts guy said he had to be joking but that’s not funny, it’s just fucking stupid.
I said though, general manager should in fact be telling him too. Maybe that’s why 4WG wasn’t doing any of this shit, because he didn’t realize this was shit we NEEDED to do, not just shit that we might do. I know he was standing there when we were told by both acting president and the general manager that we needed to do one or the other or both of these. At least some of it. So he can’t pretend like he didn’t know, and cannot pretend like I didn’t talk about it with himmultiple times, trying to flesh out exactly how and when we would do it.
After he said “when were you warehouse lead?” I was like, “what the fuck? you said that, why did you say that?” he said “I knew you were for a little while to keep andy off my back.” I replied “well, I USED warehouse lead to put myself between you two so he could go through me instead of constantly harass you. It also gave me the chance to tell him he’s wrong and kill stuff before it ever got to you. i do that all the time anyway with other stupid shit general manager wants to do or otherwise. been doing it the whole time”
He said he was going to talk to general manager. Ok then. They should probably talk anyway to get on the same page. I needed to talk to general manager too because I need the authority to press 4WG to do a lot of shit he hasn’t been doing. Most of all, get the fucking cycle counts up to date because when I was talking to GM the evening before, 4 of the 5 things we looked up were wrong. or 3 of 5? no 4 of 5. should be 0 of 5 wrong. it’s gotten so far out of whack, it desperately needs fixed.
Instead, what came of 4WG talking to GM was I got pulled from warehouse lead. GM said I don’t need to deal with that shit and we’re just butting heads. I said, no, I’m not anything, this is all 4WG and there’s no reason for any of this. So essentially I’ve had his back the entire fucking way and as I type this STILL haven’t fucking told anybody about anything at all, about 4WG being sick of shit and mad about pay and all that shit. So much shit I never said to GM or anybody else for that matter. A little to parts guy but nothing 4WG hasn’t said to him a thousand times himself.
Now I’m just pissed because in a matter of a few weeks, I cannot trust almost anyone at work anymore and fuck all of them for not having my back with this shit. They should know by now I’m not a liar. I don’t backstab people and I’ve never snitched on anyone, why would I start with the best of the four warehouse guys I’ve had? How does that make any sense. Not to mention I’ve had his back in the middle of all this shit, but I got taken off warehouse.
I get it, I could pick up so much more and take the load off people more than I already do in the office. I already got another project since getting taken off a couple days ago. I think I’m just furiously fucking angry I did everything for this dude and talked to people trying to get him a raise with not just high energy manager but the old president, the acting president, the general manager, everybody. DUde deserves more money. And he just talks mad shit for no reason and gets me pulled from warehouse lead? Fuck that guy and fuck everybody who not only didn’t have my back but demanded i apologize when I didn’t do a god damn thing wrong.
Fuck all these god damn people.
I’m typing so far ahead of what I can see because of how much I’ve typed about this fucking shit. I finished typing this a solid minute before it loaded on my screen. Apparently wordpress sucks dick at having a ton of shit punched in like this. No surprise. I hate wordpress. I really need to find a dreamweaver clone that isn’t fucked or expensive. Fucking fuck.
Here’s my view from not long before I decided to dump all this instead of sitting here staring at the ceiling angry. Not how the fuck I wanted to get back into blogging.

